The World I Am Livings In

by Frances Livings

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"More than anything, The World comes across as a half-lit stage presentation for post-Beat hipsters grown weary of all the blare and squall of an overdriven mainstream, looking for literate but unorthodox fare and a chance to once again think while immersing in moody atmospherics. (...) don't do anything else once you've tossed the disc on, or you'll miss more than you ever guessed was there."

~ Mark S. Tucker (Folk & Acoustic Music Exchange)


Frances Livings’ first solo album “The World I Am Livings In” pulls at your heart strings. Her soulful contralto voice captures the melancholy of her poetic lyrics which play like a book of twelve musical short stories. Many tell of loss but they all depict the strength of the human spirit.

The musical core is a trio, consisting of voice, grand piano and upright bass which gives the album a very tangible, transparent and acoustic feel. At the same time, each song possesses its own unique sonic qualities: Some are spiked with elevating, almost classical string arrangements, others move in interesting grooves and sounds, using a Rhodes or an electric guitar in the style of European nu-jazz.

This album was recorded with some of Los Angeles’ most accomplished jazz musicians and produced by Greg Porée who has worked with some of the world’s greatest artists, including Joan Baez and Stevie Wonder. Released by Moontraxx Records in 2013, it stays true to the label’s motto “A popular approach to intelligent music!”.

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released 01 March 2013

All songs written by Frances Livings
except
2. When Love Falls Apart, music by Frances Livings and Greg Porée
and
8. True Colors, by Billy Steinberg and Tom Kelly

Produced by Greg Porée
for Moontraxx Records 2013
Recorded at Nolan Shaheed’s, Pasadena
Mixed by Rob Beaton, Los Angeles

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Frances Livings Los Angeles, California

The London-born artist Frances Livings can be heard on a variety of recordings. Besides music, she has worked as a designer, has earned a PhD in art history and is the founder of the music production company Moontraxx.
Drawing from these different life experiences has made her ability to both craft and tell a story very unique. Frances first solo album will be out soon.
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Track Name: Don't Ask Me If I Miss You
Don't Ask Me If I Miss You

I do not possess a photograph
in a silver frame
I bear no lovelock in a locket
I wear no mascot on a chain
Your image is in pencil
on paper oh so thin
the wind softly picks you up
and carries you away again

So don’t ask me if I miss you
'cause I do not want to lie
there is nothing to tell you
not a thing to say
your voice on the phone
it just echoes in space

Cause I never write you letters
by soft candle light
and I don’t caress the bedclothes
when you’ve been here for the night
There is never a tomorrow
a future or a dream
you slip through my fingers
you just fade away
I never really long for you
or want you to stay

I lose you, I just lose you
I lose you when you're not here
I lose you, I just lose you
I lose you when you're not here

But when you press yourself against me
when you kiss me deep and strong
when you lose yourself with me
when I move, move with you
when I lose myself with you

Cause I love you
when you're here with me
but I don't when you're gone
so don’t ask me it I miss you
cause frankly – I don’t
No I don’t
Track Name: When Love Falls Apart
When Love Falls Apart

We once shared a bed, a kitchen, a cup
But now I share loneliness when I wake up
The lines on your forehead, each one I know
the shape of your body, every inch head to toe
The party tricks that you used to perform
and every bad joke – I know them all

When love expires, when love falls apart
when you are just left with a broken heart
there is nothing that can soothe the pain
it's like starting your life from the beginning again
when a part of your history comes to an end
it’s when you lose – your very best friend

Now I am just left with the mem’ries we share
with heaps of photos, half a cup, half a chair
my life's packed in boxes – ready to go
heading for loneliness oh, heading out slow
When love falls apart there is no more to say
when love gives up on you – love goes away

When love expires, when love falls apart
when you are just left with –
with a broken heart
there is nothing that can soothe the pain
it's like starting your life from the beginning again
when a part of your history comes to an end
it’s when you lose – your very best friend

There is nothing that can soothe the pain
there is no one you can really blame
it's a part of your history that comes to an end
it’s when you lose – your very best friend

It’s when you lose – your very best friend
Track Name: It Will Never Be The Same
It Will Never Be The Same

You overheard that phone call
it was late at night
you heard me whisper longing words
and what you‘d sensed was right

I knew you had been crying
when I looked into your eyes
I am sorry – I have hurt you
there have been so many lies –

Now I feel so ashamed
it will never be the same
I have played the lovers’ game
now everything has changed
What I have done was so terribly wrong
yes, I’m the one to blame
that everything has changed
and it will never be the same

You punish me with silence
but watch each single move
asking, are you yearning for his touch?
or even telling me the truth?

Your hands are barely tangible
- more detection than touch
and instead of love-making
we lie at night like two matches in a box

But I feel so ashamed
it will never be the same
I have played the lovers’ game
now everything has changed

What I have done was so terribly wrong
yes, I’m the one to blame
that everything has changed
it will never be the same

My passion I had once
only reserved for you
but darling, you don’t kiss me now
like you used to do

Am I the one to blame?
That we will never be the same?
We both let so much slip away
And things just had to change

What I have done was terribly wrong
yes, I have caused this pain
everything is change
nothing stays the same
everything is change
nothing stays the same
everything is change
nothing stays the same
nothing, nothing, nothing
Track Name: I'll Be Leaving Soon
I’ll Be Leaving Soon

Suitcase in the hallway
I packed it years ago
but no destination
no vision and no goal
I’ve transited my life
but only in my mind
journeys without travelling
so many million times

Feeling like a photograph
an image, just a still
an instance that was captured
and frozen in it’s will
My life has gathered dust
as I sit here in the dark
entangled in a cobweb
cradled by a question mark

But now I know –
I‘ll be leaving soon!
I am almost on my way
The present will be past
Oh and I’ll be moving fast
I’ll be moving on – at last!

Habits seem to stick to me
like gum under my sole
memories cling like ivy
my mind’s on cruise control
now everything’s in motion
cause nothing stays the same
flowing like a river
I am moving on again

Now I know –
I‘ll be leaving soon
I am almost on my way
The present will be past
oh and I’ll be moving fast
I’ll be moving on – at last!

Cause now I know –
I‘ll be leaving soon
I am almost on my way
The present will be past
oh and I’ll be moving fast
I’ll be moving on – at last!
The present will be past
I’ll be moving fast,
I’ll be moving on at last!

At last, at last, at last…
Track Name: Eating The Darkness
Eating the Darkness

I turn the key and stare into a
long, dark corridor I see the
furniture - untouched and cold
the emptiness starts to unfold

Dust has settled with no delay
upon my absence, during the day
while everything’s just frozen in its place
from when I left at twenty past eight

I’m always on time, never too late
but what difference does it really make?

And I sit here eating the darkness
and the darkness eats at me
I’m fading into the wallpaper
on the second floor
apartment number two-o-three

This is no chosen solitude
no PMS or a crappy attitude
a cheery bumper sticker,
a slogan of the day
can’t make this loneliness go away

Wandering rooms like in quarantine
I’m starring at the clock,
on elasticated time
brain waves flickering, mercury mind
like a black’n white TV in 1969

Losing my mind, losing my mind?
Just starring at the clock
on elasticated time –

And I sit here eating the darkness
and the darkness eats at me
I am fading into the wallpaper
on the second floor
apartment number two-o-three

Am I just another Eleanor,
my face in a jar, stuck by the door?
my feelings, bits of cargo
on a long conveyor belt
just carried away while I evaporate

Sit here and wait, sit here and wait
But what difference does it really make?

And I sit here eating the darkness
and the darkness eats at me
I am fading into the wallpaper
on the second floor,
apartment number two-o-three
Apartment number two-o-three…
Track Name: Pebbles In My Hand
Pebbles In My Hand

All I’m holding now
are these pebbles in my hand
washed by the waters
the seas and the sand

All I’m holding now
are these pebbles in my hand
washed by the waters
my tears and the sand

I sit by the waters
here by the sea
these pebbles, these pebbles
these pebbles and me

I sit here by the waters
here by the sea
these pebbles, these pebbles
these pebbles and me

It’s all I’m holding
It’s all I’m holding
It’s all I’m holding
Track Name: White Angel's Café
White Angel’s Café

You’d made no reservations
hadn’t packed no clothes
arrived in the clouds so suddenly
and stood there at heaven’s doors

Did you ring a doorbell
or did you walk straight in?
I suppose your room was ready
at your last stop, the Sunset Inn

I know we’re all just passing through
But why did life give up on you?

Will you log on from heaven,
from the White Angel’s Café?
Will you tweet me your status
update your page
sipping on de-caf latte?

Have you now grown gracious wings?
Are soaring high as your heart sings,
off to another place in the endless skies?

But when you get a moment
Please remember me –
Grow me a rainbow, send me a sign!
From way up there, cloud fifty nine

You were my sturdy castle, my friend
Why did it have to end?
You were made of sand that day
The tide came in and washed you away

Won’t you, log on from heaven
from the White Angel’s Café
Won’t you tweet me your status
Update your page
And one day, that very far away day,
I’ll join you and buy you a de-caf latte
We’ll sit and laugh together
at your favourite café

Log on from heaven!
From the White Angel’s Café
Tweet me your status
update your page
sipping on de-caf latte – one day
Track Name: True Colors
True Colors

You with the sad eyes
don't be discouraged
oh I realize –
it's hard to take courage
in a world full of people
you can lose sight of it all
and the darkness inside you
can make you feel so small

But I see your true colors
shining through
I see your true colors
But that's why I love you
so don't be afraid to let them show
your true colors, true colors
are beautiful, like a rainbow

Show me a smile then,
don't be unhappy, can't remember
when I last saw you laughing
Oh if this world makes you crazy
and you've taken all you can bear
you call me up
because you know I'll be there

But I see your true colors shining through
I see your true colors
that's why I love you
so don't be afraid to let them show
your true colors, true colors
are beautiful, like a rainbow

…if this world makes you crazy
and you've taken all you can bear
you call me up
because you know I’ll be there
cause I see your true colors
are shining through
so don't be afraid to let them show
your true colors, true colors,
your true colors are shining through
so don't be afraid – to let them show
your true colors, true colors
are beautiful like a rainbow

If this world makes you crazy,
so crazy, so crazy…
Track Name: Candy's Caravan
Candy’s Caravan

Her name is not a sentiment
it’s a number and a brand
her tools are patent leather
and a swiftly moving hand

Footprints wrapped in nylons
heart-stub in an old tin can
carpets plush, red mirrored walls
Welcome to Candy’s caravan!

Heart stub left in an old tin can
heart stub left in an old tin can

A tissue box in solitude
on a nightstand without books
her trade is a sweet promise
her capital, some looks

There she leans in the door frame
checks a nail, adjusts her tits
on vodka breath she’s chanting
chanting her sales pitch:

Checks a nail, adjusts her tits
she’s chanting her sales pitch
and she’ll say:

Welcome to my magic lounge
Candy’s castle of desire
nothing you have elsewhere found
I will burn for you like fire
Pictures of passion I will paint for you
in red, pink and orange, purple and blue
you'll be my canvas and like paint I will drip
I’m top to bottom – velvety lips
Oh welcome, oh welcome!

Mornings spent with the curtains drawn
raw skin, clean scrubbed – all alone
the cat has claimed it’s sweet return
and pen and paper, mobile phone

And she’ll say:

Welcome to my magic lounge
Candy’s castle of desire
nothing you have elsewhere found
I will burn for you like fire
It's gonna be secret but it's gonna be loud
what d’you think sinner,
that this was allowed?
D’you like my stilettos,
wanna see my tattoo?
Let me unbutton that jacket for you!
Oh welcome, Welcome! Welcome! Welcome! She’s breaking, breaking...

Soon enough the night returns
come on in, she’s got her tricks –
happy pills to turn you on
bottle blonde and air-mattress lips

She lights another cigarette
this is no jazzy Cabaret
the long ash slowly dropping
and breaking with the day

she’s breaking with the day
and she’ll say:

Welcome to my magic lounge
Candy’s castle of desire
nothing you have elsewhere found
I will burn for you like fire
Pictures of passion I will paint for you
in red, pink and orange, purple and blue
you'll be my canvas and like paint I will drip
I’m top to bottom – velvety lips
Oh welcome! Welcome!
Welcome, welcome, welcome

The long ash’s slowly dropping, the bloody tap’s drip-, dripping
she’s breaking, she’s breaking
drip, dripping, she’s breaking
Track Name: Lonely In The Night
Lonely In The Night

Lonely in the night
I gaze into the dark
the winds have heaved their chest
and sprayed the heavens with stars
Violet lined clouds
the sky, an indigo blue
star spangled darkness
I am so missing you, oh –

The way you kiss my fingertips
the way you touch my hair
I was kissing your photograph
just wishing you were here, oh –

I am lonely in the daytime
awake before dawn
but even when the morning breaks
the sun comes out in vain
clouds drift by playfully
the sky’s a turquoise blue
everything is in it’s place
what’s missing, what’s missing is you, oh –

You’re the love I thought
I’d never find
so close, but now so far
I cannot kiss or touch your face
but I carry you in my heart
Track Name: Only Time Will Tell
Only Time Will Tell

Will your raving hunger
one day for me be stilled
sodden soil, saturated
will our love then fail?

When will I start hovering
and watch you in your sleep?
Seeking, and not slumbering
on the shores of your soul

When will we have spoken
our last words of farewell
I don’t know, I really don’t know
I suppose, only time will tell

When will you turn against me
like wind that blows from the East
no breeze, soft and playfully
but gusts, cold and spitefully

And when will I know
that it’s your very last kiss
passion-drained and absent-mindedly
placed upon my lips

When will we have spoken
our last words of farewell?
I don’t know, I really don’t know
I suppose, only time will tell

When will we have spoken
our last words of farewell?
I don’t know, I really don’t know
I suppose, only time will tell

I don’t know, I really don’t know
I suppose, only time will tell
Only time will tell
Track Name: Please Close Your Eyes
Please Close Your Eyes

Please close your eyes
while I walk away
I don't want you to see
that it's making me cry

But the longer I stay
the more it will hurt
darling, forgive me,
I knew right from the start

No, don't look at me
don't even try to smile
‘cause to heal this pain
It’s gonna take a while

And the longer I stay
the more it will hurt
so darling forgive me
but I knew right from the start

Please close your eyes
while I walk away
No, don’t kiss me now
It will make me stay

Please close your eyes
while I walk away
I don't want you to see
that it's making me cry

But the longer I stay
the more it will hurt
darling, forgive me,
I knew right from the start

Please forgive me
for breaking your heart